Mushy declarations from C Part I

14th March 2012, just before bed, Christian says -

"Mama I love u a lot a lot a lot..I love daddy half a lot only. If I tell daddy I only love him half a lot will he be sad?
Mama why you stop growing? Why adults stop growing? When I grow older will I go to heaven? Then will I see hamster there? I will ask hamster 'hamster, u die already?' I want to go heaven and see God.
*full of concern* Mama, you have a bolster? Oh. Ok."

*I turn to face the other side after being tired of lying on one side for too long*

"Mama turn around! Turn around so I can look at you..
Mama....you are going to fall off the bed soooon...
You must turn around so I can look at you then can sleep."

I ask him how he's going to sleep if his eyes are open looking at me. He's momentarily stumped, then says

"Let's hold hands and sleep, mama.
Mama...u hv a pillow?"

15th March 2012
I brought him down to the playground, he sees a familiar boy Siang Siang and said proudly by way of introduction "This is my mama!" before proceeding to hug me.

I am comforted and decide to bask in the moment for I know the day when he is ashamed of my presence will come earlier than I imagine it would.

16th March 2012
In the car, on the way home -

"You know what is my favourite? Mama!
Who is ur favorite, mama? Popo? I know...daddy!"
(I couldn't say it's him..cos what about Calista? Sigh..)

18th March 2012
After reading the book "Guess how much I love you" -

"I love u a lot a lot mama...I love u the whooole day..I love u even when u r sleeping, when u r at wk, I STILL love u. I love you all the way to the moon, I love you all the way to the stars and the sky. Is that far? I love you all the way to the van and the crane over there. Is that far?"

"Mama, I love you until the WHOOOooooooLLe sky!" (P comments "what a great love it is".)

19th March 2012
I brought him down to the playground together with Calista who was in a sling. A girl came over, looked at me with big eyes. I thought she was going to stroke the baby, but she raised her hand as though to hit me. Christian quickly stood in front of me and stretched his hands out. I was SO TOUCHED and my heart melted, as I saw from the little guy's eyes and his slightly quivering lower lip that he was afraid, and yet he was brave enough to conquer his fears due to love for his mama.

It made me feel that all the effort and sacrifice has been worth it.

2 April 2012
We were going for Berries class but I was pumping.. P told me that he can't afford to wait for me else they'll be late, but Christian upon hearing that, clung onto my arm, said "I love you mama, I will wait for you. I won't go." I beamed and immediately decided to heck the pumping and go.

When recounting the incident to P, telling him how pleased I was, Christian who was silently listening in the back seat suddenly butts in and says "I'm here, Mamaaa...I love you!"

P rolls his eyes and pretends to be disgusted.