I realised I've been blogging quite a bit about God these days.. but that's only because i keenly feel His presence in my life, now that i'm a parent myself.
When Christian was first born, and was such a colicky baby, it made me realise how God must have felt, trying to communicate with us lesser beings, and us, being immature and unintelligent creatures, did not trust him and continued wailing as though He had abandoned us. Many times when baby Christian was crying, i wish he could understand through the sobs that I'm there, it's alright, there's no reason for him to cry... and it then strikes me that perhaps God feels / felt the same.
The other day, when P was supporting Calista by 'hugging' her from the back so that she wouldn't fall, he was moving her arms for her and I saw her puzzled expression. She tried to look up, left and right, but couldn't figure out who was in charge of her movements and what was happening. It made me think of our relationship with God again...sometimes things happen of His doing, but we are not able to comprehend His involvement in it.. and continually complain about His absence etc etc..when in fact, He is cradling us and in control of our lives. We are like the lost baby trying to figure out a higher order being, but unfortunately limited by our 'intelligence' and can only look straight ahead into the empty space in front of us..
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