We brought Christian to Suntec City for lunch after his music class at Edvox on Saturday.
I thought Christian might like to have a look at the massive man-made fountain before we went home, and so we made our way there.
(He remembered that we did not bring him to the water fountain as promised during the last Mother's day outing at Marina Square and asked me about it.. "Why mama? Why we didn't go yesterday..? No..a looong time ago?? Why we didn't come here?")
Anyway, I had to entertain his million "Why?"s and "Mama"s the whole morning..even P laughed at the "Mama.." "Mama..." which repeated itself every 2 minutes (this is not an exaggeration). I decided to let my ears take a break and sit down at the bench while Christian and P ran the circumference of the fountain...but they came running back in a flash without completing the circle. I raised my brow at P, and he said "When he realised you weren't trailing behind us, he insisted on running back to sit with mama.."
=7
Later when we were at the Koi Garden, and Christian was going "Mamaa. can we eat the fish, mama where is the drain for the water to go down, mama is the fish food going to get stuck? etc etc", P looked at me upon hearing the nth "mama" and asked.. "Are you sure you will be able to stay at home?"
I laughed and confessed that I had the exact thought running through my mind..I might go crazy with the million questions and million attempts at getting my attention..but hearing him say "Mama" so often also underscores how much he needs me at home, to be there to answer when he looks for me.
Parenting makes me realise that a large part of love is sacrifice..and what I want is no longer so important. Rather, it's what they need right now.
(Of course, I am aware that I shouldn't attempt to be a martyr and neglect the Self either, for it will rebel one day, with a vengeance. =7 Everything in moderation..and everything in its time.)
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